Is Trying Too Hard to Be Happy Making Me Sad?

Seriously, who is coming up with these questions? They’re so good!

The answer is yes.

Why go through all the effort if you’ve constantly received nothing in return? You could just stop trying to be happy and be sad, but hey, at least no one is making you sad but yourself.

You can do all the activities that make you happy by yourself and you can truly be happy by doing that. Though constantly doing all those things that make you happy by yourself starts to add up. Then you’re clouded with thoughts of your utter loneliness, unable to figure out how to fix it.

You try to bring others into your fold, attempting to fill some gap in your lack of happiness. Except the others don’t give you the time of day. You’re a speck of dust, only to be caught every few months or so. Remembered not because they remember you, but because you remember them. You’re always making the effort, forging your bonds in a one way street, but no one want to build the other street.

In fact, that might make your more sad than happy. Because no one cares about you like you care about them. You’re not in their thoughts as often as they are in yours. There is no reciprocation. Then you hit your final 3-pointer. Shut back down. Stop the effort. Accept that no one is going to make you a priority in their life. No one will knock on your door or give you a phone call at a moment’s notice.

Don’t try too hard to be happy. Because it’s more painful than it’s worth.

Did you like my semi-life story telling? I thought it was ok. Ok, stop talking to yourself.